Sunday, December 20, 2009

Never Treat Others

You think the way you treat people will get you what you want, that if you manipulate them enough your truth will become the only truth. People are not action figures in your life, they don't cease to exist without you there. We, each of us, have a mind and life all our own. I hate the way you talk to people, I swear I will never treat others so despicably. You need to be careful with the way you treat others, because you get what you give. Kindness grows kindness, and if you keep yours all to yourself it will die, like fruit on a vine, it needs sunshine.

Monday, December 14, 2009


I will let them splash upon my windows and clear away the dingy dirt and grime of the recent months. I will let each drop of water take away a bit of sorrow. I will look out with new unhindered eyes to a changed yet familiar world. I will come out into this refreshed world and see the flowers I've been missing. I realize now they hadn't gone forever, it only felt that way when they were hidden from my view.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Simple Math

I'm sure your heart is breaking too, I'm sorry for your bruises. I'll leave a message with the guard at the gates... There was a time I could deliver directly, but the walls are built up so high these days, I'm not sure I'll ever be able to find a way through. I don't love you any less, but I can't count on you anymore.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Satellite Heart

I'm just floating around up here, beeping out my message to the universe, waiting for my transmissions to be received by a someone. Who knows, maybe that someone is you.

Saturday, November 14, 2009


Let's sail away, the world can do without us today. Let's sit by the ocean and cure our heartache with laughter. Let's go on an adventure and make ourselves paper crowns. Grab your purple crayon, let's draw a new universe. I can't live in the world today, so let's make a new one where I can.

Thursday, October 29, 2009


Every time you let me slip down your list of priorities it gets more and more difficult to be there when you remember. I love you, but I don't want to force you to be my friend.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Witching Hour

We danced around in the moonlight yelling things we didn't understand in hopes we could make our dreams come true. We held hands and felt the cold on our faces, we made our own spells and breathed them into the quiet hour. Maybe it didn't change a thing, maybe all we did was disturb the silence, but it was beautiful in a way removed from every day life. You and I, together, it feels like.... magic.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

When It Hits You

When the pain hits you it breaks your heart, and for a minute you must find a way to survive without it, impossible though the task may be. It all happens so fast. You are doing some inane task (driving, brushing your teeth, drinking a glass of water) and all of a sudden you can't breathe, and your chest hurts so bad you're sure its about to explode. The swift deconstruction of your entire world as you once knew it, and a surprise even if you see it coming.

Thursday, October 1, 2009


"I'm fine" is rarely an accurate statement. "I want to be fine" "I am trying my very best to become fine" "If I can convince you I'm fine maybe I will be" "I am so far from fine I can't possibly express it in words and I'm too wearied to try" I'm fine is not a classification, it's a hope, a tiny prayer to the gods of good fortune that everything will turn out alright, that I will survive this. So yes, I'm fine, thank you for asking.

Sunday, September 27, 2009


I don't know what this is, or if it has to be anything at all, but you fascinate me. You have bewitched me, charmed me, captured me. I like you, I like what you bring out in me. You have lit a spark, and now I have this sparkle I never had before, I glow. You inspire me, you are inspiring. I appreciate you but I do not seek to claim you, to contain you, to bottle you up and keep you all to myself. You are not my new addiction. I cherish this, lightly, but with great curiosity.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Tiny Somethings

It doesn't take much, a card, a thought, a text, a gesture. To make me happy is simple, I just need to know you care, that you think of me every now and then and hope I'm alright. I'm surrounded by people with good hearts, when you have that much love around, it cushions every blow. No, I don't need much, because you see... I have you :)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Hearties & Friend Ships

You are the perfect song at the perfect moment, you dispel the loneliness and bring back the stars. I may not have everything, but I have enough, I have you. Who cares if we are faulty, as long as we are faulty together.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

The Destination

I hear so much about how the journey is all that matters, enjoy the journey, the road is more important than the destination. Bullshit. Yes enjoy your life, but what the hell is the point if you aren't going anywhere? Why would I want to spend my entire life almost accomplishing my goal? At some point all of that work has to lead up to an achievement. Don't tell me to work for nothing, don't tell me I can't reach the stars I'm aiming for, don't limit me because you're afraid of failure. Arrive, don't just set out.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

A Little Bit

It's enough, it may not mean the world to the 6.5 billion other people in the universe, but to me, it means just that. It is not a great declaration, it is not the future planned out, it is not everlasting love or perfect romance. It is a smile, an understanding, a mutual feeling. It is the hope that someone out there notices the same things you do. It doesn't have to mean anything more, alone in and of itself, it is something amazing.

Friday, September 4, 2009


The past has been ever present, I am reminded of it everywhere I look lately. I'm not sure if it's always this way, or if I only notice it now because everything is changing. Everything I have ever been I still am, I take it with me and it shapes who I will become for good or bad. Each turn I take is just another blue line on the map, a different route to get to where I'm going. I think it's time to set down a few of these bags though, and travel a little lighter.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Little Hands

They look like tiny versions of ourselves and truly that is what they are, but at the same time they have so much personality all their own. They have this innocence that you can only possess when you are young. They have all these big concepts with such a tiny vocabulary, they find such interesting ways to show you what they mean. What a wonderful thing to be able to hold the world with such tiny strings.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Unfortunate Events

Sometimes the most you can do is hold your head up high and keep going. Sometimes you get through it simply because you have to, there is no other choice. Eventually things will change, you just have to be strong enough to wait out the bad times. Things have to break down in order for you to build them back up. Just remember when it hurts that I love you, and if you need it I've got this helping hand you can borrow.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Missing Something

I read the things you write, the words about your life and the people in it, though in all honesty I don't have to. I was there as they all happened. I read the things you write and notice I'm suspiciously absent, and I'm not the only one. I'm not hurt, angry or upset, I just find it fascinating what you keep in your heart at the end of the day. I've never seen someone embody so thoroughly every concept of missing something. You're looking in the wrong place for the right thing, It's like watching someone search for glasses they are already wearing.

Thursday, August 20, 2009


I stand on the precipice of my future, knowing that when I jump everything will change. It looks like such a frightening fall from up here. Gather my courage, and if you have some to spare I'll take that too. One last look backwards, close your eyes, deep breath. I'm ready, it's time...

Monday, August 17, 2009

When You Leave

I will remember you.
I will keep you in my heart.
I will think of you often.
I will cherish the things you taught me.
I will hold on to the good times.
I will forget the bad times.
I will see you in places where you aren't.
I will have to find a way to go on.
I will comfort those who mourn you.
I will mourn you.
I will MISS you.

but most of all I will love you, always.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Four Letter Words

I love you. I'm not sure why it is so hard to tell you that. I can't say it out loud, I feel like I'm not supposed to. When I see you, I have this strong urge to hug you. I guess it's hard because I know you aren't there anymore, and I guess neither am I...

Monday, August 10, 2009

One Time Only

There are moments you get to experience once in a life time, they happen all the time if you are paying attention. I found three today, what did you find?

Friday, August 7, 2009

Close To My Heart

I keep you there a lot, my heart. The little things you do, the way you say your name, the meaning you put in everything you say, the careful way you choose your words, I love them all. I have this smile, I keep it just for moments like this, where I am my most joyful. This smile? It happens a lot when you are around. Thank you, for this particular smile, it belongs to you.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

If Left Unsaid

I spend so much time not being able to tell you things, they build up until I'm sure I won't ever be able to live with all of them inside me. I guess that is the problem with surprises and keeping things to yourself. I would tell you, but my mouth is so full of all these things I cant say, the things I can are having trouble finding their way out.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

A Few Well Placed Claps...

Yes, that is exactly how it would sound if my mood were audible. Thank you for putting my feelings into sounds. It's perfect, and I'm glad you understand.

Moonlight to Morning

And if after the moonlit dance of beautiful moments the morning brings an end, I will keep those moments close to my heart where the soft beat will keep them safe. And every now and then, I will bring my memories to life once more, if only for a moment, only while the moonlight shines.

Monday, August 3, 2009


Sometimes I wish it would rain here. Sometimes sunshine just makes things feel worse. Like you cant ever give it a break because the sun is shining and the birds are singing and who could be upset when things are so pleasant?

Four AM

You're changing things, every decision you make takes you down a path. You're changing things for me too, I worry you've forgotten that.