Abandonment Issues

There was a time when I was real, I know there was. At least, I think there was.

Imaginary Worlds

There are giant ball pits and you have to take a slide to get everywhere. No one cares what you look like or what you wear only that you are yourself. It rains mint chip ice cream every Wednesday and you only have to go to work if you like your job. The libraries always have the books you want to read and there is always a giant fluffy chair available. Saturdays are adventure days and everyone gets on a giant pirate ship to sail for distant shores and buried treasure. You love me here and we make each other immeasurably happy.

I like the idea we got to be happy together somewhere, at least.

Once In A While

It's a little sad, but I need people to ignore me sometimes. If they don't I get this irrational fear I'm required for people to be happy. What happens after that is a blind panic that I might disappoint them, and the pressure cracks me like an egg. I know it's ridiculous. I hope I get over this someday, because I would really really like to make you happy :)